Laws, Vibes, Personal Legends

I recently picked up some books, Law of Attraction and The Alchemist. Both of these books, though they are very different, gave me some insight that I’d like to relay to you.

Do you believe in coincidences? Or fate?

Definition of Law of Attraction: I attract to my life whatever I give my attention, energy and focus to, whether positive or negative.

My first puppy-love? I first saw him in the hallway four years before I had ever made contact with him and I knew there was something. Some feeling, some cosmic-power, some kind of vibe.

In the ‘Vibrational’ world, there are only two kinds of vibrations, positive and negative. Every mood or feeling causes you to emit, send-out or offer a vibration, whether positive or negative.

Is it possible that I wanted something so bad that I sent a positive vibration out into the world to be read? Is it possible that my energy caused him to notice me and like me too that eventually we ended up together? I really don’t know.

A few months before my grandmother passed away, I lost the only piece of jewelry I owned, which was a ring; a favorite ring that could only fit one particular finger because all my other fingers were tubby, while the right hand, ring finger was the most slender. When I learned of my grandmother’s passing I knew I wanted to take something back with me as a reminder, but I had no idea what, I just knew that I wanted something of hers to always be with me. Randomly, my cousin graciously gave me a ring, a ring that belonged to my grandma. She was very petite, and had long, slim fingers, much slimmer than mine. I looked at it in my hand and it honestly reminded me of the scene in Lord of the Rings (nerd alert) when Isildur grabs the ring and it shrinks within his hand so it would fit, because that ring fit that one and only finger of mine perfectly.

Again, is it possible that I called into the universe and it heard me? Is it possible that my energy brought this about?

Positive and negative emotions cannot occupy the mind at the same time. One or the other must dominate. It is your responsibility to make sure that positive emotions constitute the dominating influence of your mind.

“You scare me because I want to fall in love. But that’s stupid. Besides, you’re better than me and I’d screw it up somehow. I know whatever we have won’t last forever. But I don’t know how long it will last and I want it to last forever because I don’t want either of us to hurt. Yet, I also know that I’m the one who would screw it up. I’m the guy who would sleep with some random chick because I’m horny and traveling and then when it hurts you, beat myself up over it,” said the boy I loved with all my heart. I said, “Well, we will handle it when we get to it, but I really want to be something with you, so let’s give it a try.”

The call was made and the universe heard.

A year later, after many, many, doubts, after numerous ‘I don’t want this to hurt’ or ‘don’t cheat, don’t do this, don’t do that,’ he did.

When you make a statement containing the words don’t, not or no, you are actually giving attention and energy to what you don’t want.

There were too many coincidences that happened, too many out-of-the-blue-serendipity type moments. The things that I focused on, I received. Good and bad. When I really, truly wanted something, I was given the opportunity to seek it.  When I really feared something, it happened. I believe now, more than ever, things do happen for a reason, even the bad things.

It’s a force that appears to be negative, but actually shows you how to realize your Personal Legend. It prepares your spirit and your will, because there is one great truth on this planet: whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, it’s because that desire originated in the soul of the universe. It’s your mission on earth.

At times both the past and the future overwhelm me. I remember what was and I am saddened by how things turned out and other times I look towards the future and fear for the worst. Luckily, I’m catching myself more and more and retraining my thoughts to focus on the present, to think positively and to attract better things. Thankfully, my outlook is much brighter which helps me on days when I'm feeling down. I have to remind myself that this is my journey and everything that happens on my journey was and is supposed to happen as a way for me to grow.

My mind is a little restless, so my apologies for the randomness and sporadic thoughts. Hopefully it gave you a little bit of insight, too?

First move...my actual move!

Since this blog is called "making a move is required," I suppose I should mention the fact that I moved! For the first time in my life (sorta) I left home and moved to the big city of Dallas! I'm actually pretty amazed that I moved, but it was necessary and has been long over due. I'm not all the way unpacked since I still need a few things, but I am finally settled. It's actually starting to feel like a home. My home.

I was once told that I should not live alone and while I was extremely defensive at the time, he was right. So lucky for me I have a really nice roommate and I have a feeling by living with her, she will show me a new world and a new world that I desperately need. This move has been a significant change in my life. I'm scared shitless honestly, but also very pleased that I'm becoming more independent and growing.

This new home is my fresh start. It's a new beginning in so many ways. For one, I'm not driving past my old life anymore. I'm not wasting my life stuck in traffic right near my Ex's apartment nor am I strolling past the apartment we used to share. I'm not living with parents that reminded me of how much I needed to move. Now I am officially on my own, making my own way.

If you ever want to move here, here are a few things I have found out about living in the city:

• You have to pay for your own grocery bags. Only a nickel for each bag, but be aware.
• Drivers are much more pissed off. I think I've been honked at more times here than ever before in my life. 
• Be prepared to parallel park everywhere you go... or have cash for valet. By the way, I'm awesome at parallel parking now!
• The city is a lot more quiet than I expected. 
• Dogs and joggers are everywhere. Everywhere! 
• So are bums. 
• You can pretty much walk anywhere. Need drinks? Right down the block. Food? Groceries? Gym? Clothing store? Right there. 
• There are different niches in the city...You've got your Uptown everyone-knows-everybody-because-we-all-get-brunch crowd, there is the Deep Ellum lets-all-drink-and-show-everyone-we-are-all-artsy group. Oak Cliff is the ghetto-but-keepin-it-classy-with-our-bishop-arts-district and then a plethora in between everything else. 

This city really is an interesting one and I can't wait to explore it and share my adventures! Please forgive me for slow posts. The move, plus working 60+ hours has had me physically as well as mentally exhausted.

But here is to a fresh start!
 

Checkmate

Have you ever played chess before? It really is a fascinating game.

It has only six types of pieces and each of those pieces have a specific and distinct way to move. First there is the King, the least mobile piece, only moving one square at a time per play. Ironically, the most valuable and least important piece of the game. All five pieces are his protectors, yet he is practically immobile, thus leaving him almost useless. One of his protectors is the Rook, who has slightly more mobility by moving horizontally or vertically. Then there is the Bishop, who moves diagonally through the board. The Knight, the most unique, operates in an "L" formation, attacking his opponents by jumping over others. The Pawn, the most underrated, has the most complicated movement, having the option to move forward one square or two and only attacking diagonally. My favorite, the Queen, has the most power on the board because she is able to move in any direction she pleases.

During my stay in Vegas, I recently played a poorly hybrid game of chess and slots. I lost, but that isn't really the point to my story, or is it? Anyway, playing that game got me thinking about how much life can be like a a game of chess. Or at least, I'll go with just my life. There is always something in my life that is this "valuable, invaluable piece" that I feel the need to have or protect or save. This piece holds me back and makes me play odd moves. Though I hold high value for it, it's immobile. It's as dormant as it can get, and I hate stagnancy. Yet here I am, always being the Pawn. I'm not even cool enough to be the Knight or the Bishop. I'm the one with the complex moves that go unnoticed, the one that people get rid of first, the one that allowed people to walk all over me.

2014 was the hardest year of my life. I let the game take over, and I lost. I lost my friends, I lost respect, and I lost the only person I have ever loved, but the worst thing I lost was myself. I became stagnant. I didn't grow for myself, I grew for other people. I moved for other players. I really did become the Pawn. I'm not entirely sure when I realized I needed to take advantage of my complexity and really begin to move forward, but I eventually did. After losing so much, there is really only two options: stay frozen, or continue to move. So I moved, gradually, and I started to play the game for myself. When I did this, I noticed the confidence build in me, I felt the pain ease, I started to find myself again, and I started to believe. I'm not the Pawn anymore, because now I am the Queen.

It is only the first month in the new year, but I already know 2015 is going to be incredible. I've already been moving at unbelievable speeds that have taken me to places I never thought I would go and that is because I live by a new motto. Making a move is required.

If you want to dominate, moving is a necessity and I want to share every move, every play that I make because I'm not playing for anyone else anymore. I'm playing for me. For the first time in my life, I'm going to be the Queen and move in any direction I please. So get ready for obscure, foolish, embarrassingly, entertaining stories because they are coming!

I believe this is the time when I would hit the clock and say, "Checkmate!"